Every time I hear silence, I fear it is the end

Every time I fear, I create weakness in my soul

Every time I am weak, I neglect myself again

I need a break, to awaken  

I need to remind myself of who I am, and what I have become  

I need to release the anxiety, worry and fear

I need to take back my power from you and your silence

I need to find peace in this moment  

I need to rekindle the joy in my heart

I need to detach and send love

I need to find myself again  

After serious heartbreak in 2015, it took me a good three years to process everything I had been through. I have been told many times that you find love when you’re not looking for it and that is exactly my story. I was content just being, doing my own thing and enjoying the single life when a guy dropped me his number and gave my world as I knew it a good shakeup. It is so interesting now, to see how I handled myself at the beginning of our relationship. Whilst I thought I was stable, all of a sudden my mind started playing tricks and my thoughts were going a million miles an hour. I expected dating again to be easy but instead, my anxiety was going crazy. I was back at rock bottom, neglecting myself. Until one day whilst journaling, I realised my answer was to find myself again, take the pressure off and find the self-love I had lost. What a learning curve I was on. How could I have been so quick to lose myself to someone again? Focusing on my happiness and doing things that brought me joy actually brought him closer. He saw me happy, busy and doing my thing which is what he was attracted to in the beginning. Signifying how important self-love is!

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